Yesterday brought more interaction with that person who I feel is attacking me psychically. The past few weeks, I have tried removing all anger, all negativity, all bitterness from my thoughts of this person. I’ve tried to wish them well, mentally. Yet, for all of my positive manifestation, the mere minutes I spent in contact with this individual left me mentally drained and quite frankly upset.
The decisions being made by this person are affecting more than just themself; these decisions are affecting people who have no way of giving a voice to their desires. Where is the equity in that?
My next question: why I am I failing to improve this relationship, still? Is this individual’s bitterness toward me negating my positivity toward them?
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8 Comments
November 6, 2007 at 4:40 pm
Hmmm. As I started to type this I got a totem (animal symbol) that represents silence and being solitary…and then that was quickly followed with the word “spy.” but I dunno whether that’s relevant to your situation or just a message to me
But what comes to me is to ask you what you would do in this situation if you had absolutely no fear…of any sort of repercussions. What I have come to experience is that whatever we readily accept (or fear) keeps coming at us… It’s like the Universe says, hmmm, she must like this since she’s showing no indication (taking no action) to change it — okay, here’s some more
It would seem it’s not quite enough to just change our energy on the inside, we have to also take some outward action to reflect what we desire. I think there’s no set pattern as to how we bring about things or changes that we want, that’s why we have our lovely intuition
But the starting point would definitely be to clear the negative energy or ill will toward this person, and then, most important, lose the fear of him/her as well as any fear about what repercussions you might create by taking the needed action. Then, as YOU INTUIT, take that action, even if it comes from a place of “righteous anger.” That kind of anger, I have come to see, is a particularly good and powerful thing.
“Sweetness and light” doesn’t always fix things, it would seem the Universe expects us to stand up for ourselves, show our strength against the “bad guys” in certain situations. We were given all of our emotions for a reason, use that precious anger in a positive way, to tell this person they’re out of line, that you aren’t going to accept it anymore. Do whatever you feel that you need to do to get them to stop their abusive ways — to show them YOUR POWER. Make sure you have strength and “faith” (no fear) in your heart when you take that action. Know that you deserve better — that’s crucial.
Remember, people know when someone fears them (consciously or subconsciously) and they’ll use that — just like an animal will sense the fear… Having fear in the heart is dangerous.
Use your own intuition as to what action to take, know that you should love yourself enough to do something, and be fearless in doing it. You’re likely to create something uncomfortable, that’s part of it, but move through it with pure intention and fearlessness and no matter the outcome, it will be the right thing for you.
Peace,
Dove
November 6, 2007 at 6:25 pm
Thank you, I appreciate your message.
As I’ve reflected on some of the other positive things I’m trying to invite into my life, it occurs to me that maybe I’ve missed one crucial step: removing doubt. I still have great doubt that the bitterness this person holds for me may never be removed.
Due to a difference in age and experience, my discussions with this person seem to always give them the upper hand (even when incorrect). There simply is no listening to the voice (in this case mine) of reason. And, after they’ve made me feel as though I’m about two feet tall, I become angry and long for a sharp stick with which to poke them….there’s my negativity again.
I’ve been trying to step aside and experience things from their point of view–though I have a right to be where I am, I can understand how this person might view me as an interloper, and I’ve been trying to use this information to allay their fears that I am not intending to replace them.
It is hard–though I never expected a quick change, I think I need to remove my doubt and go forth with the knowledge that things will change (namely because I will make them change).
I appreciate the support (and though I haven’t checked out Curott’s book yet, I do intend to do so!)
November 6, 2007 at 11:17 pm
“I still have great doubt that the bitterness this person holds for me may never be removed.”
Yep, doubt equals fear.
And there’s this thing called “detachment” that I have found is crucial. Detachment from outcome. We do what we do, our “spells,” our affirmations, our “prayers,” whatever works for us, but then we have to let it go, detach from it, have patience, trust and all that
And why is that necessary? Because otherwise we’re trying to be totally in control, and, oddly enough
that’s based in fear. And fear will always block us from getting what we want. BUT, another important reason for detachment is we don’t really know what outcome is in our best interest, but the “Universe” or “God” or our “Higher Self” does 
And here’s an example of what I mean. Let’s say this person never gets over the bitter feelings toward you, and that spurs you to find a different situation for yourself, and that situation turns out to be something that brings your heart a lot more joy — maybe more money, less stress, you meet your soulmate there or whatever, lol
Ya’ see? We don’t know on a conscious level what’s ultimately in our best interest, what is “bad” or “good,” and that’s why we need to follow our intuition and THEN trust that the right outcome will always come from that — no matter what it is.
Trust, “faith,” patience, detaching from outcome, “letting go” … all of these are extremely powerful, because they’re all about releasing FEAR. And fear is the only thing that ever truly keeps us from the good stuff
November 24, 2007 at 10:56 pm
I’m sorry you’re going through this. Power plays/psychic attacks never fun, and something most have experienced at one time or another.
A few things that have worked for me in the past:
1. Remembering I don’t own anyone ANYTHING. If someone isn’t respecting my time and energy, I will direct it elsewhere. End of story.
2. Carrying black onyx or apache tear in my pocket during the day, and sleeping with it under my pillow at night. These stones are readily available at many metaphysical stores, both in person and online. They help one ground while absorbing and destroying negativity.
Best of luck, and stay strong. I hope this was even a little bit helpful.
November 26, 2007 at 6:06 pm
“own” above should be “owe.”
March 12, 2008 at 6:01 am
It’s the same thing as religion or emotional feelings…?!
July 11, 2008 at 10:27 am
well how are you feeling now ,great blog by the way
Seamus
July 11, 2008 at 12:59 pm
Thanks for the kudos, Seamus. Things have improved, whether through my own positive thinking or some other outside force I don’t know. I’ve come to recognize that I don’t need to feel threatened by this person, and that we are not in competition (though it is easy for me to see how this person would perceive me as such a threat–that’s their prerogative). Either way, I need to worry about myself and not what they think about me, and try as best I can to work for a common goal without being spiteful of this person.